Over the years, Felix has drafted hundreds of emails to send to his mother finally, he works up the courage to send one. Her departure is one impetus for his suspicion that no one will ever love him. His mother, Lorraine, who abandoned him and started a new family when Felix was 10 years old, is not in contact with Felix. He attends a gender identity discussion group and googles trans terminology until he finds the word demiboy, which makes him feel whole.įelix also struggles to understand his parents. The thought of figuring out who he really is and coming out to everyone again leaves him paralyzed. Meanwhile, Felix questions his identity as a trans guy. After this revelation, Felix and Ezra share a kiss, which causes Felix to freak out and reject Ezra, hurting his feelings. When Lucky asks Declan about his breakup with Ezra, Declan reveals that he always thought Ezra was in love with Felix. Declan starts to fall for Lucky, unaware that Lucky is Felix in disguise. They talk about art and express vulnerability, comfortable in their anonymity. After the gallery wall incident, an anonymous Instagram user named grandequeen69 begins sending Felix transphobic messages.ĭisguised as Lucky, Felix learns that Declan is not the one trolling him. To get revenge on Declan, Felix creates a fake persona named Lucky on Instagram, hoping to glean a secret of Declan’s to reveal to the world.

His first guess is Declan Keane, Ezra’s ex-boyfriend who constantly bullies them. Cat’s, Felix embarks on a mission to figure out who did this and why. When another student anonymously puts pre-transition pictures of Felix on the gallery wall at St.

Catherine’s, to work on their college portfolios. Felix, his best friend Ezra Patel, and many other students are attending the summer program at their elite art school, St.

The story starts on the first day of Pride Month in New York City. However, he is riddled with self-doubt and feelings of worthlessness, and fears that his poor, Black, trans identities make him unlovable. This guide references the Balzer + Bay first paperback edition.įelix Love is a 17-year-old who dreams of falling in love for the first time and getting a scholarship to attend Brown University.

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